Saturday, January 21
let me live
greetings earthlings.
army has thought me to cherish things i may have at one time or another, taken for granted. especially my family. and other stuff like proper food, my phone, and hot bath water.
at times when it's reveille (waking up time lah) and i lie on my bed, fan beating furiously above, the cold emotionless wardrobe beside me, i get no motivation to live. the days are mind-numbing, going through motions and following procedures. all the shit there is, wearing my body and spirit away. breaking my will. i'm surrounded by wonderful people. they help to make life a bit more bearable. but there's no way i could ever bring myself to grow to love this.
i must tell myself i'm stronger than this.
7 weeks to go.
one hour late for lights out. bah.