Monday, May 23
so the football season has come to a close. and come to think of it i don't know what i'm gonna do during those lonely saturday nights. or sunday nights. i will miss buying chips and drinks. i will miss getting up at 3am on a weekday. and most of all i will miss having something to look forward to once or twice a week.
mid yrs are close by. yes the MID YRS are freaking close by. -ambivalent
past few days have been in a whirl. confusion. apprehension. the way that things have unfurled have led me to question myself. and the one thing that used to seem in most little doubt. i'm just no longer sure of anything anymore. i feel myself uncontrollably taking a step back. withdrawing. like a wounded kid who now knows the dangers he never used to see.
i am just afraid that i would never step forward again. deep down i know it is right. it's what my mind says.
my heart, well it doesn't exactly know what it's feeling now.
onto happier stuff, spent the whole of yesterday at suntec. magicmagicmagic. bought a few cards. and basically had a ball of a time improving my decks.
well, can't think of much more happy stuff. signing off.